“My Real Father” Monologue       Christeena Aaron

Trina: (Pacing the floor) Mom, I don't know if I can do this. I don't know if I'm ready to meet this man that I've never known. Gosh, what if he hates me? (Points to herself) I mean what if he thinks I'm ugly? I just know he's not going to like me...Oh no! What if I don't like him? What if he comes through that door, right, and our eyes meet and the feeling's not there? (Beat) Yeah, he's my father, but not like Frank is. Frank is Dad, this guy...I mean Ben, is just a father, right? I mean he and my biological mother decided they couldn't hang with having a kid at such a young age so they gave me up. And I'm cool with that, I think. It's just that I really don't know what to expect from him. I mean the letters he sent where cool and all, but they were just words on paper. (Shakes her head) I don't even know why I bothered looking for him, I'm eighteen now I should be getting ready for college and not sweating the old stuff. I mean my biological mother couldn't deal with it when I found her. She's got her own life now with her own kids, the one's she actually wanted. I'm just a bad memory she's trying to erase. (Beat) What do you mean I don't understand? Mom, she doesn't want to know me, and she sure doesn't want her husband and kids to know that she had a bastard kid when she was sixteen. So, what if, my father feels the same way? Rejects me like she did? I should have never contacted him. I'm setting myself up big time, I just know it (Pause) He's here isn't he? Okay, I'm ready to meet him!

Character: Trina

Trina: Female, 18

First: Trina sitting at dinning table talking to her mom who is in front of her at the kitchen counter.

Second: Trina gets up and points to the front door.

Third: table with letters on it couple feet from the door

Four : pacing

Fifth: goes back to sit at dining table

Sixth: stands up behind mom who is about to open the door

Trina is a happy teen who is living with her foster parents. Her biological parents gave her up when they were 16. Now at the age of 18, Trina is about to meet her biological father for the first time. She is nervous and has anticipation. She has already met her biological mother and she wanted nothing to do with her so she fears rejection with her biological father. She’s mad at him for giving her up but tries to understand the reasons. She wants a connection with her father but doesn’t know how it will happen. Trina has always been a foster kid. Since birth she has been in and out of homes, not staying anywhere for more than a couple months. Finally, at the age of 13, her mom (Carly) and dad (Frank) took her in and didn't let her go. They took care of her and tried as hard as they could to mend the scars Trina has but somethings can never heal. The burden Trina has from her biological parents is still there. Once she was settled with her new foster parents after 2 years she finally admitted to them that she wanted to find her biological mother. Her foster parents agreed that she deserved to know why she was put in the foster care system. After a couple months, she found out her biological mother, Maya, who lived in New York which is only a state over. She is an accountant and is married with two kids. Once Trina found  her email, she explained who she was and Maya emailed back asking to meet her at a park in her city. Carly drove Trina to the location and Trina couldn't be more excited. Carly dropped Trina off and Trina found Maya sitting under a tree. Trina's excitement was wiped off her face once she saw the look on Maya’s face, anger. Maya didn't leave any room for discussion and told Trina that she needed to stay out of her life. That she was a mistake she didn’t want to have any memory of. Maya’s husband came by wanting to surprise his wife not knowing who Trina was. Maya told her husband that Trina was one of her friends daughters that was going away to college soon so they wouldn’t be seeing her again. After that, Trina made an excuse to leave and couldn't stop the tears that fell from her eyes. This broke her. Carly tried to comfort her the best she could but Trina didn’t want to talk about. She doesn't want the same reaction from her biological father.